hmmm, can say my heart out during this raya bcos im all alone...have 2 celebrate it without my parent and all my family....i cannot describe my feeling cos i just cannot cry or even share my feeling. All i can say is my heart is left at my hometown its goes along with my feel there..
but, fortunately he is here 2 accompany me...so i did not feel a so lonely no more...tomorrow i will accompany him all day long until raya...bcos i dont want 2 felt sad ..this is my first time u know.....just cannot describe... just called my mom she say all are at kampung except for me n k ida....i have 2 move onbe more mature now...not all thing i can do with the present of my parent now....
i can say that these few day was very challenging 4 me.......he has beyond boundaries that i never see the other side of him.....hes really caring, n concern...can see when i went 2 accompany him during his work day....then when i want 2 go back he keep on hold me bcos dont want me 2 go back so early....then when i want 2 go back home he accompany me until lrt...it was so nice...bcos i fell comfort n i can feel that he didn't want me 2 go home....after that he keep on tracking me where am i bcos he was worried about me...he just stop when i has arrive at home...until then he say that im safe at home so dont have 2 worry much..so sweet right???
same as i want 2 go back here yesterday bcos he keep on asking where am i...i dont know y..but actually he just want 2 go back 2 s alam 2gether...i was so hepy bcos have the opportunity 2 spend time with him on train..it was a rare opportunity, u know?....he keep on smiling n talking regarding himself n other thing..i can see that he was so hepy ....he totally has change n become different n look more shining...hehehehe...
he keep on saying that he so hepy now bcos he is not alone anymore cos he got me now....his life bcome more merrier n his life also n bcome meaningful also....
aku tak tahu apa yang ku rasakan
dalam hatiku saat pertama kali
lihat dirimu, melihatmu seluruh tubuhku terpaku dan membisu
detak jantungku berdebar tak menentu
sepertinya aku tak ingin berlalu
berikan cintamu juga sayangmu
percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu
hingga waktu menjemputku
ku berikan cintaku juga sayangku
percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu
hingga waktu menjemputku
saat ku tahu kau akan pergi jauh
izinkan aku tuk selalu menantimu
untuk katakan ku ingin dirimu (ingin dirimu)
agar kau tahu betapa ku terlalu
mencintaimu aku akan menunggu
hingga dirimu kembali untukku
tolonglah aku bagaimana diriku
ungkapkan itu rasa yang membelenggu
dalam hatiku ku cinta padamu
berikan cintamu juga sayangmu
percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu
hingga waktu menjemputku
p/s: syg ku harap kau mngerti perasaan ku ini...percayalah padaku seikhlasnya.....
Lately im feeling kind of mixed up with my decision that i done right now??........whether this is the right job for me?..or not...sometimes im kind of stress n give up when doing the training....kinda lost actually.....i want something else 4 my life but not all come in my way.....
sometimes feel that it will be easy as if some1 can lead me the way so that i can strike back again about what i want in this life...with what had happen in my life it feel that i just dont want it 2 happen gain in future....the pain is so deep.... in future, i just wanna have a simple life n a good work that i enjoy every second n minute i work there....i want it but y must the road is so hard 2 achieve....every path that i made or cross into is so hard to believe.....oh god,..plez show me the way...insyaallah i will have the sign n way 2 make me go through this life...amin...
Menunggu sesuatu yang sangat menyebalkan bagiku
saat ku harus bersabar dan trus bersabar
menantikan kehadiran dirimu
entah sampai kapan aku harus menunggu
sesuatu yang sangat sulit tuk kujalani
hidup dalam kesendirian sepi tanpamu
kadang kuberpikir cari penggantimu
saat kau jauh disana
ooo…
Gelisah sesaat saja tiada kabarmu kucuriga
entah penantianku takkan sia-sia
dan berikan satu jawaban pasti
entah sampai kapan aku harus bertahan
saat kau jauh disana rasa cemburu
merasuk kedalam pikiranku melayang
tak tentu arah tentang dirimu
apakah sama yang kau rasakan
walau raga kita terpisah jauh
namun hati kita selalu dekat
bila kau rindu pejamkan matamu
dan rasakan a a a aku
kekuatan cinta kita takkan pernah rapuh
terhapus ruang dan waktu
percayakan kesetiaan ini
akan tulus a a ai aishiteru
hapus sendiri pikiran melayang terbang
perasaan resah gelisah
jalani kenyataan hidup tanpa gairah
banyak segala misi dan ambisimu
akhiri semuanya cukup sampai disini
dan buktikan pengorbanan cintamu untukku
kumohon kau kembali
ntah np aq rindukn sgt umah.....mmg agak lame gak la xblik kt umah..n bile taw adik blik aq jd meronta2 gak n blik or terbang gak k sane.....rindu kt dorg sbnrnye....need attention actually!!!!!!!!!!
duk kt sini pon sorg2 je....yg d kawan2 yg kerja lbh krng je la...sbb kje yg xkire mse n weekday or weekend ni susa sket nk jngka........nk2 skrg ni ngah training...lg la xleh nk kate pe......jdula siap da siap smpai blan ogos ni...ter lalu pack....xleh nk squezee lngsung la.......
pat relax pon cme sehari je kt umah.....nk kuar g mne2 jd cm mlas sgt sbb bkn selalu pat duk umah lme2...hehehe..lwak kn tp 2 la hakikatnye....mse 2 aq siap la msg mk ari2 sbb xleh nk than rse ati ni yg menanggung rindu...........org laen leh la ulang alik.........nk cri kje yg dkat sket pon susa...myb mmg rezeki aq d kt sini kot.......2 yg susa sgt nk cri pluang kt tmpt laen....adakah dsbbkan bnde ni??????????/...argghh, jd xkeruan aq dwatnye taw........
ngan kje yg xtentu...jap ok n not...nk padatkn smua yg aq bljar then n kne evaluate so soon..rse sgt yg mse sgt cmburukn aq mse ni.....bnci,...tensen pon d......xtaw da mne nk ltak ag......smua persoalan d bermain d minda aq ni....senak jdnye bile dy dtg serentak taw.....wat serabut je...
Dont know how 2 describe....but i feel kinda lonely these day myb bcos he keep on silent 4 almost 2 days....i was thinking 2 myself whether i do wrong? is it about what im saying...and so on......all kind of thing was on my mind at the first place...........i wanna smile all day long but my heart feel the pain...how am i going to throw away all these feeling???????
plez,..let me know...dont keep on silent at me....im bored 2 be taken care as a child..as if i cannot do anything on my own....damn, i hate that!!!!....
could u just give me a sign that i can understand that u want me or not........so i will not wasting my time waitin..n waitin.......feel kinda stupid u know.....hate this feeling...
