Dont know how 2 describe....but i feel kinda lonely these day myb bcos he keep on silent 4 almost 2 days....i was thinking 2 myself whether i do wrong? is it about what im saying...and so on......all kind of thing was on my mind at the first place...........i wanna smile all day long but my heart feel the pain...how am i going to throw away all these feeling???????
plez,..let me know...dont keep on silent at me....im bored 2 be taken care as a child..as if i cannot do anything on my own....damn, i hate that!!!!....
could u just give me a sign that i can understand that u want me or not........so i will not wasting my time waitin..n waitin.......feel kinda stupid u know.....hate this feeling...
kau dan aku bkn insan yg same...n mgkin sbb 2lah smua rse n gerak ati xseiring...selalu saje berlaku percanggahan...makin lame mndalami mkin jauh rsenye...terlalu byk perbezaan yg xmgkin dpat tok d atasi...
ntah knpe persoalan ni leh mncul lam hati aku ni?????......hruskah aku mngikut seh=gala tlunjuknye???...ataw aq buat shaja ikut gerak ati aq ni...agar smuanye berjlan ngan lncar tnpa d sesape yg nk arahkan sesuatu ataw larang,,,
msh d lg sorg yg mnagih jnji stlah sekian lama?????...tp aq mmg xleh nk terima dy lg dlam hdup aq ni....bkn aq pntingkan dri sndri tp aq mmg da xleh nk sorok lg perasaan ini.....yg aq mmg da xsuke lg pdnye...yg teramat sgt..rsenye cam xberbaloi sgala pngorbanan n pe yg aq buang or tinggalkan semata2 tok hdup ngan dy...tp dy sia2kan sgala harapan yg tlh aq berikan pdnye...dy tlh mmadamkan smua rse n mcm sia2 pe yg tlah aq berikan pdnye slama ini....
aq berhrap agar kau...insan yg baru dtg n bertakhta lam ati aq ni xkan mmwat bnde yg serupa...tp nmpaknye hdup aq xlari der mndpat cubaan n dugaan yg leh mncbar ksabaran aq lg...sesungguhnye aq da xkuat ag nk hdapinye berulang kali lagi....cukup la sekali pngalaman itu..
kini, kau yg ku kenal jauh berbeza......kdang2 sgt caring n take care..smua bnde dy nk taw...kdang kala rse cm berckap sndri pon d..sbb xd respon dr dy...tp penah skali aq xmsg dy yg aq da smpai umah...trus je col n mrah..sbb xbgtaw dy...katenye aq nu milik dy...n dy berhak taw pe yg aq wat n at least bgtaw kt dy..xd la dy risau...katenye dy cume d aq je...so dy xnk aq pergi dr dy.....cm so sweetkn?????...kdang2 aq jd confius gak ngan sikap dy...d pasang surutnye la...jap dy akan mnrut sgala perintah n pe yg aq nak..kdang2 dy wat xtaw je...
mgkin dy yg terbaek tok aq..walaupon kne bersabar sekurang2nye dy amek berat pasal keperluan aq..xd la aq ni dbiarkan je....mean dy syg la kt aq kan???????
don't know y but my heart feel hurt...bile kiteorg bersame rse cm d connection je..rse dunia kmi yg pnye...walaupon kdangkala ade rmai mata yg memandang k arah kmi....aq xtaw samade pe yg aq rse ni ptut or x?...tp aq xtaw r pe pndgan org trhdap kami...
rse sedih n pilu bile dekat dy amek perhatian n caring sgt tp bile da jauh kdng2 dy xamek peduli..agaknye mmg cm2 la perangai golongan adam ni bile mncecah umur 30 an???...confius dwatnye...samade dy ni betul2 seyes k x??..ataw pe ???....adakah aq ni sbg sandaran shja.....bile dy perlu dy akan cri n then dtinggalkan je....
selalu aq merase bgini taw...cam ksong je...cthnye cm smlm ....dy lyan aq 1 ari sbb rse berslah tbe2 je d job yg dtg..snggup dy meredah jem n teman aq...then kne teman dy plak sbb xlrat nk blik kul 12.....pas2 anta aq n then jnji akan col tp hram xd pon smpai la k saat ini...bile aq tnye pndgan org msti dorg akan ckp sabar la...dy xpe2 2...cme bz ngan kje dy je...smuanye jwpan nk sdap kn ati..???..YA ALLAH..kau kuatkan la iman n hati hambamu ini..sekiranye dy bnar2 jodoh yg kau utuskn kpdku...kau dekatkan la hatiku kpdnya..n buangkan la sgala keraguan yg d di dlam hatiku ini ya allah..kerna hmbamu ini insan yg lbh...n mudah terbuai ngan emosi sndri...amin....
