happiness and sad at the same time...

this week was the happiest day of my life.....he pamper me, cherish me 24/7...all that i want he will try to find and get it....whether is hard or not but at least he try 4 me...felt so hepy at that time...just like we live in this world only both of us....at first he just send me 2 work n fetch me right after that..then its became his everyday routine,........and if i on leave he will accompany me n we go for a walk.........


but it was not always the same..he is about 2 leave me 2 go 2 china with his friend....i don't know how long...it will make me feel so lonely and sad at the same time.....cos he just lighten up my life then gone for a while..not fair enough 4 me, u know?


just after he gone,...i felt an emptiness in my heart felt like it has been taking away from me...felt like a hole inside me...its take 4 a while 4 me 2 stabilize to u about the feeling...from the bottom of my heart...after he left just keep on silent 4 a while,,,


but tonight,..like allah hear my voic e and prayer...he just call b4 this...feel so hepy and also sad...myb the tear is a tear of joy 4 the time being...thank u syg sbb bertnyakn kbar...alhmdulillah...everything unsuspected has happen..just like we don't  hve any thing that plan 2 happen...miss u darling...